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If you get lucky enough like I did, you meet someone pretty special, despite everything you might know about the rules of the world and life and whatever. Someone who is amazed by you in the ways you were never appreciated before in your life. Someone who is going to show you a different view of yourself that you have not seen or known so far.

You’re afraid that it’s not living by the rules of your world. You are afraid it’s different to anything you have experienced.
You have been asking yourself all these questions and they keep coming back, over and over again, and a specific feeling starts to creep in, it gets stronger and stronger and at one point you know too well, you can’t keep the unicorn. All the inner doubting and questioning, all the imbalance you notice from your end and your own attitude…

And you find a moment of peace between all the questions and answers and you realize, this unicorn isn’t yours to keep…

You know you have to let go…

And when you finally let go hoping it will give you respite from all the doubt and questioning, you realize you will miss so many things about the unicorn, so many things you won’t do together, and it feels empty now.

And tears stream down your face and you don’t understand why: is it because you gave up? is it the joy (yeah, fucking right, not!)?
or more likely, is it because it is really painful to let it sink in that you don’t get to keep the unicorn for yourself and you know you shouldn’t, yet a big part of you still wants to…but I guess that’s normal, you don’t get many (if any) unicorns in your life…

The peace you were hoping to find isn’t quite settling in just yet… you need to keep reminding yourself though it’s not right to hold on, and you’re not loosing the unicorn out of your life anyway, you just realized you can’t keep it for yourself and it will take time to adjust…

Thank you for being my unicorn MKW
Please don’t disappear

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